FDS = Delusional!

I was reading a blog a few days ago and I read a post about FDS( fat denial syndrome). I'm not sure if there is a diagnose as such, but i think there should be as I do believe I had it.

I was talking to my friend Hara yesterday, and I was telling her about how I would look at myself in the mirror and I would honestly see a woman who was smaller than what she actually was. Where did that come from? A mirror is a object that shows an exact reflection, yet I saw something else? How can that be? I was in denial and delusional. It's as simple as that. I think...

I mean it's mind over matter right? So my mind wanted to believe so badly, if not convinced itself that I was in fact smaller than what I really was. Don't get me wrong I knew I was fat, just not that fat.

I tried an experiment in the beginning of this process which I believe is why I will not revert back. I took pictures of my entire body from my mac computer. Front, back, & side views. I printed it out and starred at it. I mean I honestly looked at it and saw the real me. The me that everyone else could see except me.

I put it in my purse so that whenever I get lazy and don't want to work out, or crave something unhealthy I will take it out and look at it. I want to remind myself of what I really look like and how much it will hurt me both inside & out, if I don't work out or eat unhealthy. I would really recommend anyone who is wanting to lose weight try it. It's an eye opener to say the least. I think the first step it to realize the truth and stop being in denial. I am on my way to kick FDS to the curb! You should too...the truth hurts but it's the key to where you really want to be!

TD